i tink im turning into an insomniac.bcos its 2am n yet im awake. or it cld be bcos i slept like 10.5hrs last nite,plus the whole afternoon.haha.. anyway, ever had bouts of insecurity?like ur not good enough in terms of qualities that matter, and looks and materialistic things. n i wonder, who exactly are we afraid of being judged by? maybe its the people we feel infrerior to,maybe its our closest friends,maybe even by God,although we fail to realise,He loves us unconditionally. but insecurity and infreriority are horrible feelings anyway.and then u question,why? n then are plagued with wistful dreams stemming from that sole pensive wonder of,'if only'. also,i realised i share way too much abt my life with everyone.n den i find out things about them that i nvr knew,though it isnt bad or anything.its just that the person isnt being as open as i am, n den suddenly i feel kinda embarrassed,divulging all my secrets to these people i barely know. you know, i tot i had life figured out in a way.like i knew enough about what was happening, and that everyone was a clear-cut nice or evil person. BUT i realised im not a great judge of character and trust too easily.isit a bad thing?i'm not too sure yet.give me abt 20 yrs n den i'll let you know. there's so many lessons im learning.who to rely on,where to draw the line,how to stand up for what i believe in. thing is,i guess i'm just beginning to learn life's hard lessons.its gonna go on till i get old.n i realised there's alot im gona haf to face in the future. failure,heartache,loss,hurt,betrayal,guilt,helplessness. but there's also gonna be joy,success,freedom,hope,peace,satisfaction,acceptance and love. and u noe what,though the future's all scary, i know God's always gonna be there, eventhough i may do some horrible mistakes.and that in the end, everything's gonna be alright =)
1:57:00 am
riane*
*riane brittany francisco *born on the 1st of july 1989 *eurasian *i believe in Christ *ex-tkgian *4e7'05 *ex-SAJCian of 06S18 *MJC now! 06S302
*loves
~God! ~mr.princess ~dots ~salt ~mr.snowy who has gone home to be with the Lord ~glitter ~pedicures,manicures! ~beautiful beaches ~animals ~friends ~daydreams ~fun
Soul Music*
at the moment the song i'm in love with:
Gwen Stefani- the Sweet Escape
Jimmy Eat World- The Middle
ya i noe this one's old,but its the one keeping me going at the moment =)
you're currently listening to
and i'm lusting after
*that pretty white camera
*a new phone that sony ericsson cyber-shot one
*a room makeover
*a whole new glam wardrobe.
